Walk Away With Part of Me

Okay, so my heap of junk car broke down last night :(. This thing, although awesome, is OLD. my grandfather bought this car in the 90's so he could drive to get his kidney's drained. then he died and my dad got it, drove it until like a year and a half go, when it became mine. but i couldn't drive it because i didn't have a license.I got my license in January and I love driving so i was tres triste when my blue monster died on me.

Alack! Now it is fixed and my life is better! Yay!

Okay, Obligatory guilt post. I never post here, i suck. Oh well. Junior year is almost over. Holy shit.

Okay. School has started. So because I am totally uncreative i'll tell you about what I am up to in regards to my schedule. Ready, Set, Go:

1B. Free period- Working on History Day project of less doom then usual during this period. It is less doomed currently because I have already had an interview which never happen in the first two weeks of school. This is good. What is also good is that i can also hang out with the Intermediate Theatre Class this period. I've been working with Aimee and Josh on their scene and it is coming along really well. Maybe i'll get some pictures up.

2B. French 4x- I love this class it's less like a class and more like a party. But with grammar. So i guess it's not really a party.

3B. AP Lang- Class of doom. Most likely for me to struggle in most but learn the most from as well. Expect entires of me freaking out about this one.

4B. Theatre- Getting ready for scene day (big performance of scenes by the whole department). My scene is Irish and hilarious. I get to shoot Jonathan in the cheek with a air-rifle. ( Well not really but in the show that's what happens). If Bookdock Saints was a play, it would be The Lieutenant of Innishmore.

1W. Math- I don't get math. This scares me. But everyone says the first unit of IMP 3 is the hardest. I sure hope so.

2W. AP Euro- I love this Class. I am finally in my Element

3W. AP Environmental Science. - I don't know what to think of this class yet. All I know is that Mr. Miller is funny, the book costs too much and we need to get over the rubber ducks.

4W. Theatre. - For those of you who don't know (basically everyone) I go to a crazy Arts school. You have to audition to get and you have your major for an hour and a half everyday. Mine is Theatre. Theatre is also getting a new guy in our grade. (gasp) The catch is he lives 7 hours from the school. So my mom and I have offered to take him in until his family can move here. This shall be interesting. I'll keep you all updated.

I am sure that was so intellectually un-stimulating. Sorry. But that's my life. Maybe i'll be deep another day.

Okay, So life is pretty good.

This is if you cancel out the sillyness at work. I'm pretty sure i'm only getting paid for this job because they have to make up for letting seriously underage girls get hit on by drunken men between the ages of 21 and 50. It's really not that bad. If anyone gets too creepy the other people working will kill them. I find it pretty funny most of the time.

But I haven't been too lazy, i've seen some friends, everyone seems in a pretty good mood( read: SUPER YAY). This is so great. I love people.


In other news,
My hair is all beautiful again! It is a gorgeous color and it feels all soft and silky right now. Crissy is my hero. I'll post pictures as soon as i get all my other pictures uploaded too. I really need to do that. lol.


Peace.

I'm sorry for all the emo posts.

Sometimes i have dreams where he actually is dead, and on the first day of school she doesn't know so i scream at her about everything she has made me feel because of him and everything that is just my own issue with her


and i never feel better. Life goes on.

Sometimes i dream he is here with me and it's warm and he smiles and i smile and nothing is ever wrong again.

This dream just makes me cry.



This was the stupidest post ever.

+ 10 for dressing really cute today

+10 for making good food

- 1,000 For PMS major

- 1 Million for being a total bitch/hurting people you love

-1,000 for feeling unforgivable

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-10011980

Okay. Post time.

Considering it's massive size, the internet is really boring. Maybe it's just today.

Mom just got home from AZ with emotional baggage and a whole sack full of letters my Grandmother wrote when she was young. Last night she called Marcie, her best friend, and they talked for like an hour. My mom cried and screamed about how horribly off my aunt is and how it's my aunt's fault( This is in fact true. My Aunt weighs like 600 pounds, has no job, spends her entire life watching cable and not cleaning her house or paying her taxes). I just turned up the volume on the TV. I can't stand to her my mom like this. I love my aunt, My mom does too but we handle it differently. I pretend nothing is wrong and keep treating my aunt the same. My mom screams at her, then cleans her house, then comes home and bitches about it.

The coolest part of her return is all the history of my Grandmother. Mom has been slaving away on her family history but her mother doesn't exist anywhere it seems. Her father died/was murdered, and she has married either officially or by common law more men then we can keep track of. This makes her really hard to find. Yet my mom keeps working and things keep popping up. It's really cool. All the letters my Grandmother wrote are amazing, she was a real Rosie the Riveter during the war, and she had the prettiest handwriting ever.


I have been home exactly 20 days and i still haven't uploaded my photos from France. I need to do that. I also need to upload the photos of the coolest leadership training program ever, AKA Leader's Challenge. I just got back from their 4 day camp that starts off the year long program and it was so much fun and i learned a lot. I can't wait to see everyone soon.


Oh! Oh! Oh! I am soooo ADD with this post. I have almost posted it like 3 times already. Now where was I? Oh yes, I made the most epic desert ever tonight. Just because i was bored and had made the rest of dinner too so desert seems like a logical step. I made a sort of strawberry shortcake with puff pastry circles all baked up. Then i filled them with sweetened, whipped mascarpone and some strawberries i cooked down with sugar and water into a syrup of sorts. It was sheer heaven and i came up with in off the top of my head. I should go to cooking school and study pastry.


Okay. I'm tired. Have a good one lovelies.

I'm home.

France was 10 kinda of amazing and i am totally in love with it.

On the down side i was sick for my last 5 days in paris and could barely stand let alone go tourist around paris. It was icky. My mom thought i was dying. So intense is my life.

So now i have to go to the doctors and have them figure out what the hell is wrong with me. At least i no longer have a fever and can function. And i get to see Jake today! that makes me happy.


How are you all? Have a good 4th?

Today I leave for France. Wow. It still hasn't quite set in that in like 25 hours(with the time change that is) I will be in Paris. But i am all ready. My suitcase is lighter for these three weeks then it was when i went to Seattle for like 5 days. My hair is reblonded and my nails are done.( lol) Unlike yesterday when i was a spastic disaster, running all over the house, not being able to stop moving, i now am beyond nervous so all i can do it hope for the best.

I promise to update from France as often as i can and maybe even include a picture or two if the Internet isn't totally slow.

Hope everyone has a great next few weeks.

Peace,
Lace

I am a stupid stupid girl. I am a stupid stupid girl. I never cease to amaze myself at how annoying, paranoid and silly i can be. I really really need to chill the fuck out. I really hope i haven't pissed anyone ( Jake) off with my being pointless. This post was lame. I'm sorry.

AHHH work. My neck is still fucked and i have sooo much work i have given up on breaks and i still can't get it all done before France even if i filed 24/7. ick. It was better today due to a lack of 10-year-old boys helping me. I get so much more done alone with a book on tape at my desk then i do running around after Nick and arguing over something i'm getting paid to do. He's coming in tomorrow but then i have 1 whole day to work without him. Maybe we can actually work tomorrow. getting a lot done would make me very very happy. But who knows?

I leave in 4 days!! Yay! I am pretty much totally packed and i got all my money sorted out. I am so excited but i am also pretty nervous, i'm not sure why it's just stressing me out and causing me to flip out at everyone, exhibit serious lack of judgement and turn into the clingy silly bitch teenage girl that i promised i would never become. i am so ready for the relaxing part of vacation to kick in. Then maybe people can bear to live with me again.


Things to do before trip
Nails
Chill the fuck out
Fix my trashed hair
Chill the fuck out
Hang out with Jake
Chill the fuck out

I really want to update this more. The problem is i can't update from work because Livejournal is oh so very dangerous and scary according to school districts. blah.

I should be at the Slaughterhouse Slam tonight. or with Jake or something. Instead people are coming over for expensive salmon and hours of cards. i should go get dressed for that. Night.

Today was pretty decent. I decided that due to stress and a messed neck i would take the day off. That and i really didn't want to go to the funeral.

The only problem with this lovely scheme is that fact that my dad is also now taking every Friday off and his idea of a day off is quite a bit different. So i got up at 9 am and cleaned the refrigerator. it sucked.

But then it got better. I drove Dad around town and we got some shopping done for things around the house, got Lollicup (sooo good.), then went to see Jake(finally). We had fun, chilled, spent very little time at his house then it was PARTY TIME. Got to see all my peeps. We listened to music, we talked about absolutely nothing of substance, we made a scavenger hunt, we played groundies, we attempted to enact said scavenger hunt, we laid in the grass, it was nice.

Of course in the middle of all this i was plagued with another woeismei'mgoingtogocrynow moment. but it ended pretty fast, thankfully and i was able to enjoy hanging out with my friends. I have been having more of those lately. But hopefully France will cure me of that and i can enjoy the rest of my summer. I really need to chill the fuck out.

Tomorrow i have to up at 7:30, it's Saturday. There is no god.

I feel like I owe all of you a real post that is more then 10 words and not incredibly cryptic/emo.

I have been working at my mom's office for like a week so far. It has been super boring and all of the bending over my desk has fucked my neck and shoulders up something awful. All i do all day is photocopy old newspaper articles then cut them out, sort them and file them. In 5 days i have filed away 1 year in newspaper articles. The year is 1966. The articles are about the School District where my mom works. So i can now tell you everything that happened in Jefferson County Public Schools in the year 1966, every controversy, every new building, every new staff member and award. It is more interesting then it sounds but still it's time consuming and there are so many more years to archive i don't think i'll ever finish.

In more fun news. I leave for France in 8 days. I have all my stuff picked out and basically all i have to do it pack it up and head out! I am so totally excited. I promise i'll take a ton of pictures and post many of them up. I promise.

Other then that things are well, everything was pretty crazy and i was a emotionally wreck but today things settled down and it looks like it could be a nice happy summer/life after all. Ah to be young and in love.

Hope all my LJ friends are doing fantastically!

Lace

I'm crying again. I really need to stop doing that.

I feel disgusting. I just was lamenting how ugly i look in a swimsuit and followed it up with a cookie. I am sick and wrong. Tomorrow i will start my diet in earnest. I'll go for a run, i'll clean my room, i won't drink any soda or eat any sugar. i'm throwing out all the cookies. Maybe feeling pretty will console me.

Today was one of those days where my mom and I spend way to much money, but it was totally worth it because it was all stuff we need for FRANCE! I got a dress and a scarf and shoes and books. it was all very nice, I'll post pretty pictures later but for now i am going to go see Paris Je T'aime at the Mayan and thank god that i am no longer the insane bitch i was being yesterday.

Goddamn Hormones.

I'm, Nervous, Jealous, Hella excited , freaking out and many other combinations thereof. I would feel better if it wasn't 6:30 am and people were awake to calm me. I have a legitimate reason to be worried, but i still should calm down.

first day of work, here i come. if only all of this related to you.